Monday, March 21, 2005
Let me go
Hey all, I hate to come back after such a long time and start this way but I need to say something. Terri Schiavo, like the Vagina Monologues seems to become a word of power that arouses people on either side of the issue to instantly turn from normal to insane. First she is in a persistent vegetative state and depending on the amount of brain damage that occurred (and more importantly where it occurred) she will never get better. Well, forget about that, she has been this way for 15 years.
That said I would hope that my friends and family would let me die long before that time, especially if I was conscious but could not interact with them. What sort of life is that when you can merely watch and do nothing as the world rolls on? I would not want to see my siblings grow older over 15 years as I lay there. Personally I would not want that. I would rather be a ghost at your side than trapped there. I understand that some people would want to preserve my life regardless, but what sort of life is that for them to choose? I think even 5 years is too long of a wait. I would want to die and let the people that love me move on, rather than wait at my bed hoping for me to get up one day. That day may never come and if they waited 15 years I'd hope to God that someone would realize they are deluding themselves otherwise.
What I have said sounds hateful and cold. It makes me wonder what kind of person I am to throw away a life so easily? Perhaps I would not throw her life away if her parents wanted so desperately to save it? I find it amusing that this situation may have occurred before, or that people have been removed from feeding tubes to die before, but it is getting so much attention right now. It makes me wonder what the issue really is at this point? Her life or the will of the people that now control her life? I do not know, nor will I likely ever know the truth, that is something I have now becoming accustomed to.
I just hope that no one is ever faced with such a decision. I also hope that if I were trapped within my body, that those that love me will let me die rather than draw might life out for a moment that might never come.
That said I would hope that my friends and family would let me die long before that time, especially if I was conscious but could not interact with them. What sort of life is that when you can merely watch and do nothing as the world rolls on? I would not want to see my siblings grow older over 15 years as I lay there. Personally I would not want that. I would rather be a ghost at your side than trapped there. I understand that some people would want to preserve my life regardless, but what sort of life is that for them to choose? I think even 5 years is too long of a wait. I would want to die and let the people that love me move on, rather than wait at my bed hoping for me to get up one day. That day may never come and if they waited 15 years I'd hope to God that someone would realize they are deluding themselves otherwise.
What I have said sounds hateful and cold. It makes me wonder what kind of person I am to throw away a life so easily? Perhaps I would not throw her life away if her parents wanted so desperately to save it? I find it amusing that this situation may have occurred before, or that people have been removed from feeding tubes to die before, but it is getting so much attention right now. It makes me wonder what the issue really is at this point? Her life or the will of the people that now control her life? I do not know, nor will I likely ever know the truth, that is something I have now becoming accustomed to.
I just hope that no one is ever faced with such a decision. I also hope that if I were trapped within my body, that those that love me will let me die rather than draw might life out for a moment that might never come.
# posted by J @ 10:37 PM 
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I was also wondering, who is paying to keep her alive like this? her family? the taxpayers? Is that a horrible thing to wonder? I wouldn't want to burden my family like that for 15 years.
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