Thursday, October 13, 2005
It is clear that none of this is clear.
I have a headache right now and my run nor my Advil seem to be doing anything about it.
Besides that I am going to post something.
Lately I have had trouble waking up before 6 to run. I have also had trouble going to be before 12... So I'm going to make tonight an early night and we'll see what happens to the problem. I'm also trying to avoid doing something, not homework. I'm actually doing homework to avoid doing what I need to do, which is write my platforms for student government. Somehow I start to get panic-y and agitated every time I bring up the word document to write these things. I've never run for class anything before, I've always been one of the guys who helped his friend run for office. Not really a sidekick, but not the main hero though? Perhaps I am running away from something, like responsibilty, but the fact is that I'm appealing to my friends and class mates to let me lead them. I'm afraid I'd screw up or something, but this is frustrating. I've written and presented major projects with a group minutes before we had to present and felt only a slight worry about failure. Why is my confidence lacking? Or if that isn't it why can't I think of anything to say? Except: Vote for Pseudo and all your wildest dreams will come true.
If I could only think clearly.
Gah!
I just left to Star-Nobles (Starbucks/Barnes and Nobles) to study with a classmate. I got home and was acosted by my neighbor to eat some of her banana bread (she wanted to make sure it tasted right). So on a caffiene and sugar high I wrote my platforms for both president and vice president. Next week the voting begins, oh crap I'm so nervous now. What if all the kids laugh at me? Hey wait that happens all the time, but normally I'm in control of what they are laughing about.
So we'll see. Hopefully what I wrote wasn't too corney or too glib (if that is the improper use of glib I claim Dr. Seuss in my defense).
Anywho more updates tomorrow,
good night.
Besides that I am going to post something.
Lately I have had trouble waking up before 6 to run. I have also had trouble going to be before 12... So I'm going to make tonight an early night and we'll see what happens to the problem. I'm also trying to avoid doing something, not homework. I'm actually doing homework to avoid doing what I need to do, which is write my platforms for student government. Somehow I start to get panic-y and agitated every time I bring up the word document to write these things. I've never run for class anything before, I've always been one of the guys who helped his friend run for office. Not really a sidekick, but not the main hero though? Perhaps I am running away from something, like responsibilty, but the fact is that I'm appealing to my friends and class mates to let me lead them. I'm afraid I'd screw up or something, but this is frustrating. I've written and presented major projects with a group minutes before we had to present and felt only a slight worry about failure. Why is my confidence lacking? Or if that isn't it why can't I think of anything to say? Except: Vote for Pseudo and all your wildest dreams will come true.
If I could only think clearly.
Gah!
I just left to Star-Nobles (Starbucks/Barnes and Nobles) to study with a classmate. I got home and was acosted by my neighbor to eat some of her banana bread (she wanted to make sure it tasted right). So on a caffiene and sugar high I wrote my platforms for both president and vice president. Next week the voting begins, oh crap I'm so nervous now. What if all the kids laugh at me? Hey wait that happens all the time, but normally I'm in control of what they are laughing about.
So we'll see. Hopefully what I wrote wasn't too corney or too glib (if that is the improper use of glib I claim Dr. Seuss in my defense).
Anywho more updates tomorrow,
good night.
# posted by J @ 6:43 PM 
